Hi guys! This is a post I have wanted to do for ages after reading a series of posts from Frankii, which were super raw and emotional, and I recommend them so much!! This post will be aimed at one particular group of friends that I was friends with during high school.
I truly wish the best for every one of you, but our time has come and gone. I’m still bitter about how I was abruptly thrown aside the moment things got tough, but I do not blame any of you. I also don’t blame myself though. There was a hell of a lot of immaturity in our friendship, and I knew I wouldn’t have you all in my life for much longer. I was going through my own personal crisis, what sixteen-year-old girl wanted to be a part of that?
Looking back on it, you all should have been there for me. I don’t forgive you for that, and I don’t think I ever will. But no matter what, I can’t bring myself to regret our friendship. Sure, in my ideal world it wouldn’t have ended in Burger King of all places, I wish I wasn’t made to feel even worse than I did already and I wish it didn't result in me having to pretend for a whole year that everything was okay. You were all meant to be my best friends, and best friends should have been there for me during what was the worst thing to ever happen to me.
However, we had some great memories together. And for that I can never truly hate any of you. There’s a lot of things we done together that gave me a real sense of belonging.
I’ve shut this chapter of my life. There’s no point ruminating on the past, rather it was more of a learning experience. I truly wish the best for all of you, and I wish you luck and happiness on your own personal journeys. But this is the end of your journey with me.