I didn't originally plan to do a post on this, but I had a meltdown on Twitter (which was deleted swiftly), and I felt like I really had let negativity get the better of me (which is something I'm attempting to combat).
My posts recently have been a way for me to reflect on the year that I just had, and a way for me to say, "life has been okay, not brilliant but not too bad!", however an issue arose (which I'm not going to go into), and made me feel really rubbish. You see, I am a happy-go-lucky person. I'm almost always smiling and laughing, but this year has been really rocky for my mental health. There has been highs and lows, where I've felt on top of the world and then times where I want to drop out of uni and lay in bed for the rest of my life.
I think this is normal, and I think everyone deals with things differently. Some people block the bad stuff out, and my method is to joke about how badly I feel, as if joking will make it go away. It won't make it go away, and this is a lesson I had to learn the hard way. There have been so many times I’ve just broke down into tears because I couldn’t cope, and this coming year I need to at least attempt to deal with my mental health.
However, the point of this post is not to dwell on the past. I'm starting my new year early, and I'm leaving all traces of negativity behind. I'm a massive believer in the theory that what you put out into the world is what you get back, and while this can only be applicable to a certain extent, being positive and looking at things with a positive mindset helps you deal with things better. and this is how I plan to start my new year.
Looking so forward to seeing you all tomorrow evening at 6pm!!